Like frost bite on my Knees I needed an amputation
Like the clog in my pipe i needed ressucitation
But I kept on keeping on
Hoping you'd tag along
Then I looked at the one way sign
And realized I was following all along.

I haven't used this in so long... I should update more.
Maybe I will.

She's everything I've been looking for. And SO MUCH more than that.

Life is just shit.

Today should be a good day. *Keeps fingers crossed*
My teacher just e-mailed me back and told me my paper was definately an A paper, and a bunch of other stuff about how I should be proud I was able to write about all that. I feel good.
I have to head back to H20 to pick up in a little while, and then we are going to see Spiderman 3 later... can't wait.
Then Crystal is coming over?
Yeah... should be a good day!

I just wrote a paper on PTSD and I'm really proud of myself. I was talking to my teacher about it, because we had this huge list of topics to chose from, and I was like, well I have a few of these disorders haha. So we went through the list and when I said that I had PTSD she seemed like she really wanted me to write the paper about it, so I was like cool.
And I'm sooo proud, and so happy that I did it because it felt pretty amazing to actually write about it and talk about.
I just wanted to put that up here, even though I'm pretty sure people don't read this thing anymore.
I'm also having a good week. House sitting in Peabody for Dani's sister, and me her Joey and John have basically been living together and just having a ball.
Idk.
Things are good =)

I'm fine.
I don't care anymore.
She finally did enough that everyone who used to love her, hates her.
My family thinks she's shit.
My friends want to hit her.
I feel good.

Last night was sweet. Hung out with Kathleen and her brothers and smoked. Pretty fucking awesome.. I love that girl. And tonight should be awesome, because I'm going to Joeys with Dani and John. I'm actually kind of excited about hanging out with Dani. We haven't really been fighting as much lately, so things are pretty good. =) No complaints atleast.
I'm starting to think that I'm never gonna let myself fully love someone. I think so much has happened to me in my life that there is a huge part of me that will remain as hard as a rock and as cold as ice, and there's nothing that can change that. That's probably why my relationships fail: because I'm never gonna trust someone enough to have faith in them. If that makes sense..?
Eh I don't know.

I am going on a date today. I can't remember the last time I went on a "date." Obviously not including the dates gone on while I was in a relationship with Dani, because once you're "together" it's not dating anymore. You know? I'm wicked nervouse. Like... I can't remember the last time I was this nervous about something. Yeahh...

We went to NH for my birthday... John, Joey, Dani, and I ... and it was a lot of fun. Got drunk both nights I was up there, haha, and we have some interesting videos from it. One of me and Joey trying to run across ice over water on the Kancamangus Highway.

Yeah I don't know. This update was pointless...

So today I finished this amazing documentary in Writing class. It's about the EV1s which are the first American car, and how GM produced them after the California Air Resources Board passed a mandate that stated car companies had to produce a certain amount of cars each year that were less detrimental to the air and such. So GM didn't like that they were being forced to produce cars which didn't require gasoline so they basically lied and said their wasn't a demand for them and sued the CARB so that they didn't have to make them anymore. And even after huge protests and an offer of 1.9 million dollars to keep SOME of the cars on the road they hunted them down one by one, took them back, and shredded them. It's fucking ridiculous that America has the technology to break our addiction to oil and we don't use it. You plugged the friggen car into your garage and it was good for 60 fucking miles. The average miles driven per day is 29. I love how we're so money happy. It makes me so fucking mad to see a 3 person family driving a hummer. YOU DONT NEED IT!
Grrrrr.
A few years from now when the black cloud of death takes over all our breathing air, you can have GM and the fucking oil companies to blame for squashing technology so they can put some money in their pockets.